should or not

lat nite im tinking should or not i try it again....coz it likes giving ten black roses to me...
rrr...confession...it easy to fall but hard to catch it...how to maintain...n how to start it...
im always think...always.....but there r sumting in front of me..sumting hinder me to catch it..
confius2...tat is he my rite person??? coz we r so different...i know u jus wana fren with me even i wan it more...but dis ting stil hapen n always hapen..every person i wan run away from me...why n why...smpai ble mende ni nk blaku..smpai ble2...it means i must forget him....i will...
sape yg mulekn dlu...spe yg diamkan diri...sape2...haaahhh...dasat...xkn nk jd pempoan yg hegeh2...klu org xnk...xkn nk pakse....ur felling to me.....i know u jus wana play wit me...thankss for everything.....
but what if i need u???? wat can i do...plz... coz i hate dis situation....

Don't speak, I can't believe
This is here happening
Our situation isn't right
Get real, who you playing with?
I never thought he'd be like this
You were supposed to be there by my side

When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
You're always ready to give up
Whenever I turn around

What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away
Without a fight

I'm so sick of worrying
That you're gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
And everything that we ever were
Seems to fade but not the hurt
Cause you don't know the good things from the bad

When I say that I want you
You know that I mean it
And in my hour of weakness
There's still time to try

What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away
Without a fight

Every time I speak you try to stop me
Cause every little thing I say is wrong
You say you're noticing but you never see
This is who I really am, that you can't believe
Makes me want to know right now
If it's me you'll live without
Or would you change your mind
What if I need you?

sick..sick of dis....